Go to the pumpkin patch. Carve pumpkins. Make pumpkin pie. Make a fire at least three times a week. LA Haunted Hayride. Disneyland Halloween thing. Dress up for halloween. Go trick-or-treating :) Make Gingerbread Houses. Ice Skating in Pershing Square. Play in the snow. Put up my Wall Christmas Tree. Look at Christmas lights. Go to a New Years party. Have a New Years kiss.
It wasn’t until I saw you tonight that I remembered all the fucked up things you said and did to me. You sat there, lying to my face for years. For years. Claiming you loved me. Then turning around and blaming your indiscretions on me. Instead of accepting that fact that you chose to sleep with multiple girls while you were with me, you just said that I wasn’t adventurous enough in bed for you that you had to sleep with someone else. You know, instead of saying something to me so that I could change that.
And now, you’re the one crawling back. It’s been three years and you’re still begging me to marry you. Begging to sleep with me just one last time.
You will never get me back. You have ruined your chance. Everything I ever liked about you, is gone. I had nothing to say to you tonight. I could barely look at you without wanting to hit you in the face.
I spent years upset over you. Now, I’m happy. Happy in almost every aspect of my life. I don’t need you in my life anymore, I haven’t for years. I don’t think anyone knows how happy it makes me to know I don’t love you anymore. I don’t even like you. You will never get to manipulate me or use me again.
It’s sad that someone that was my life, is now absolutley nothing to me.